Ever been in a place where it has felt like you've lost everything good you ever had? I have, multiple times. And while it has felt as though I was stuck in between a sharp rock and a hard wall slowly closing in at that time, I am now able to say that it was just a growing opportunity. And although it would be great to never feel that way ever again, I highly doubt that will be the case until I am lying in my coffin. So instead, I look forward to feeling that way again. I'll tell you why.

Hello. Long time no post? Yes, I know, I am sorry. In my last post, I resolved to post more often than I had been. And then I proceeded to not post anything for two years. I have nothing to say to explain my neglect except for maybe COVID happened, but it's still no excuse. Please just forgive me?

Anyways, I recently watched the super sappy movie 'To All the Boys I've Loved Before' and started reflecting on my own life after that. So, perhaps, we can say that this post has been inspired from that movie and is in fact, a spin-off from it. I actually got to thinking about love and who all falls within the category of being a loved one in my heart, personally. And honestly, that is a lot of people. And I don't mean to make that sound like "wow, I have so many people in my life that I love and give my heart out to," so just hear me out for a second.

Love doesn't have to be about intimacy. Love doesn't even have to be towards people you like or get along with. I may be an odd one out in this particular notion of mine but I love even those who have brought harm to me. I'll say that again: I love even those people who have affected my life in the worst way possible. Why, you ask? Bear with me a bit and I'll tell you.

Two weeks ago, I quit my cushy accounting job at a large consulting firm. I took a leap of faith to finally feel like I wasn't settling with my life.

Getting married to my husband was the best decision that I have ever made in my life! But the whole process, before, during, and after, took a lot of time away from my life. 

​My brother considers me fearless. That couldn't be farther from the truth. I know why he is mistaken though.
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